I am so glad it is Friday. I get to spend the weekend with my husband in Wadena. He is enjoying is job at the National Arbitration Forum and I am so proud of him!

We had big drama with the apartment we thought we wanted in St. Louis Park and now are going to be living in Shakopee which changes things as far as my job goes--kind of. We had our deposit down and everything was fine and dandy until we found out they changed their mind about pro-rating the rent for 1/2 mth of June AND would not give Justin a single key until we could both be there to sign the lease. All of this after we confirmed 42,000 times that I would not be down there for a few weeks/months and that they would indeed pro-rate the month of June--otherwise Justin was going to wait until July 1 to move in. It was impossible for me to get there to sign any papers of any kind. Long story even longer, we are out $400 deposit and moving to Shakopee July 1.

I'm relieved somewhat because I lived in Shakopee several years ago after high school and before college and loved it--small town feel but so close to the luxury of the city. My uncle lives there as well and it will be so nice to be close to help him out with his kids, especially Ryan once he starts his 2nd round of chemotherapy in a few weeks.

The downfall is that I found out today there is another position in Roseville that is basically mine if I want it (I didn't get the casualty rep position). It's a shitty commute that I would only consider if it was a job I absolutely loved--even then I might hesitate. I in no way love or even like my current job and don't think it's worthy of a drive like that. I suppose I could suck it up until baby is born but realllly don't want to. Husband is half-understanding of it but is afraid nothing else would be available for me closer to Shakopee. If we were staying in Bemidji I would agree fully, but we are going to the other end of the earth basically.

I just want to have a normal life someday soon! Preferrably one that does not include cars, body shops, or injured people.

Missouri=Misery

I was able to return from CAT duty a week early and am thrilled to be back in Minnesota. My flight came in around 9pm on Saturday and seeing the Minneapolis skyline has never made me happier.

Returning to the office here after only 1 day off didn't bother me so much. Even though it was extremely busy today I am ecstatic to do what I'm good at in an area where I excel and people encourage my growth and development. How much I've taken that for granted!

I have my phone interview tomorrow afternoon for the casualty rep position in Roseville and am a little nervous. I don't have a real passion to get this position--it's more of a means to an end I guess. Justin signed papers last week on our apartment in St. Louis Park and our house here isn't familiar any longer. We have 90% of our belongings packed up and in the garage awaiting U-haul day.

The next couple months I will probably be still working in the Bemidji office and living in our current house--courtesy Progressive Insurance. I'm glad that I can be here to assist during our busiest time and make the transition easier for everyone.

This time away made me appreciate my job, my life, MY HUSBAND! He came through for me when I needed him the most and I can't explain the new light I'm seeing him in. I'm very pleased and proud to be his wife! He is going to be the greatest daddy ever and sharing the blessing of our pending arrival has me glowing (finally!).

I'm starting to show and have reached 5 months and all is well. I have my next doctor's appt next Wednesday and look forward to hearing that heart beat again. I am so unworthy of all of these wonderful things and people in my life. Why does it take a week of hell in a different state to make me realize such a thing? Whatever the answer is, I'm glad all the same.